end of holiday

1 month of holiday just end like that.. alright.. it's my fault, not being able to use it wisely.. the more time you gave me, the more time i will waste...

well.. this holiday had been a hard time for me and my family.. each of our heart aches so much going through all these.. but i know, the person that suffer the most is not me, i am so relieve that the condition seems to get better by now.. i can now go back to penang feeling more relieved..

I had no idea that you had become so mature.. had such a strong heart.. you are so calm when all of us are crying.. when it is so scary and it makes me tremble, u are still as calm as ever.. the pain that u had suffer, i dont think i can imagine it.. it must have been like hell ya? i don't even wanna think about it..

but it is all over now.. the nightmare is over.. dont have to worry bout it anymore.. it is all fine now..

gotta go back to school on sunday.. haih.. although i am so unwilling to leave my home sweet home, but i gotta keep moving on..

i will be back again soon.. the next time when i'm back, it is chinese new year.. hehe..

will miss my family,my home,and of course, my frens here so much~

坚强吧

好想分担那彻骨的痛，

好想减轻那些痛苦，

好想找到解决的方法，

好想帮上一些什么，

好想看到阴天之后的彩虹，

好想有一天，

能够看到真正幸福的微笑。

当坚强的大树也挡不住狂风的时候，

我那微弱的力量也只能给它微不足道的扶持，

大树始终需要自己撑下去

就算狂风把树上的叶子都吹落了

那坚硬的根也要继续扎紧着土地

而我

就一直站在大树的旁边

累了，就让它靠一靠

大树一定要一直坚持下去

狂风之后

那棵大树就会是所有大树之中最强的大树了

惜福

很多时候，都不知道自己原来很幸福。遇到小事就怨天怨地，埋怨这个不好那个不好，这就是没用的我。看一看别人吧，遇到那么痛苦的事，还能好好的活着，隐藏着自己的痛不让任何人看见。而我呢？一点小事就大呼小叫，我像什么样了啊？

一点点小病痛就非得告诉妈妈不可，也没想过在远处的她会担心。别人呢？伤得那么严重也不愿透漏任何一丁点让父母知道，只怕他们会担心。而我，我为什么就这么不会想？？

自己已经很幸运了，不，应该是说的确很幸运，能够拥有完整的家，大家融洽的相处。只是，自己都不会珍惜，还时常埋怨。不会多点疼惜自己的父母，不会多点付出子女应有的本分。

我，看到了原来，藏在各个角落，有很多比我痛苦几百倍的身影。他们独自撑着，有苦说不得。坚强的外表，开朗的性格，让人根本就无法想像他们内心深处所承受的痛苦。

所以，请珍惜吧，我希望自己真的可以从这一刻开始，好好珍惜自己目前的生活。

我是幸福的，一定要惜福

SEMESTER 1

well i had finished my semester 1 in usm. This means that i had been in university for almost 5 months. Time sure flies doesn't it? I can still remember that day when i sat on my dad's car and passed by the penang bridge heading to usm, my heart is pumping so fast, and everything awaiting me is an unknown. It is hard to believe that, i had successfully survive. All of those worries before that seems to be useless now.
My 1st semester is pretty fun. I had make so much friends from my hostel, my coursemates, and also from the activities i joined in school. I realize the important of friends for me when i am away from home. They always helped me and we had so much fun together.
about my school work, well, i am kinda ashamed because i am not hardworking enough. looking at those of my coursemates, in which most of them came from matriculation, they are so hardworking! finishing every tutorial questions, studying most of the time. and if u seat beside them during exam, u will be in so much pressure because they keep on writing, while u dont even know how to start. Talking bout exam, gosh, i hope i can survive all of them. I think i did really bad in most of the paper.pray~~
other than my boring life of studying, i had also join society and activity in school. so happy to say that, i had make so many friends from that, and of course, i met my best friend there,hehe. Joining activities means a much busier life, but it is really fun. the activities in university is very much different than high school. I am currently in a committee organizing a camp, hope it will be a success :)
I am beginning to love Penang more and more by days, there are so many historical building here. Compared to the food, i love the building here more,hehe. And another i love is, the sea~~ staying at penang is great, because i can go to the beach at any time. for me, Penang is not much different than kl, just that, there are no lrt and monorail here. we travel to anywhere by bus. Touch n Go is only useful on highway.lol
hmm, this final semester break will end soon, i am currently lying comfortably at my home doing nothing, not even consider going for a part time job, i just wanna enjoy the moment at my home sweet home now. But the only thing is, i miss my friend.....