university

ya..I had been offered the course Bachelor's Degree of Accounting at USM Penang.. I had been thinking much b4 accepting it.. i don't wanna leave KL, the only city that is full of entertainment..KL,a place where I know all of my friends here..KL,place where my family will be here all the time..
So,why did i accept it in the end? well,first, I dun wanna lose the chance to enroll into university..which people stated as one of the best part of life..secondly, it's my first choice,i want that course,coz it had good prospect,m i interested in the course?not sure,had to study first.but 1 thing for sure is, i dont wanna work in a lab in future,i dont think it suits me,office life,is more of the kind i prefer..
BUT after accepting the offer,many things were coming to my mind..I realise i am a coward..I am so scared,so nervous till i can hear my heart pumping when i couldnt fall asleep at nite..well,i know many would laugh at me knowing this,but i couldnt help it,my biggest weakness AILUROPHOBIA(fearing for cats) is haunting me..why?coz most of the students would eat outside at foodcourt,which means getting along with those creature..can i survive that?when i am with my family,we can avoid going to those places,but with those fiends?am i expecting others to tolerate becoz of 1 person?NO!i should overcome it..i should..i hope i could..
other than that, living in a dorm is what my life all about after this..4 years..without ASTRO(which is essential to my life),maybe without access to some of the internet side such as youtube,facebook etc(ban by school),will i survive?
i had been CRYING few days before this..coz the most important thing that i cant let go is MY FAMILY.. till now, only i realise i had a strong bond to them.. i am extremely close to my sis and bro.we will laugh and share jokes together..singing kpop songs that only the 3 of us know..even for a day,i already miss them to death..yeah, i am a sentimental person..and it is a weakness..i keep telling myself to be STRONG..STRONG HEART is important when i am living alone all by myself..no more pa to settle things for me..no more mum by my side to let me discuss and talk bout conflict i had been facing..i am all alone..
it is a big change to my life.. my uncle said everyone had to grow up,somemore i am already 20 this year..yea,i havent even close to the word mature..it is a good chance for me to grow up..overcoming every obstacle..i will come back strongly and proudly after 4 years..BELIEVE IN MYSELF AND STAY STRONG, ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH!